Contradictions

A poem written about all the feelings heartbreak elicits.

i can't decide

whether i'm angry or sad

whether i hate you or love you

whether i want to throw things or cry

whether i want to hurt you or kiss you

hurt you the way you hurt me

kiss you the way you should have kissed me

i can't decide

whether i want you to retreat or come back to me

whether i want to be strong or fall back into your toxic cycle

whether i should trust or be suspicious

whether i should protect my heart or offer it to another

protect it the way i should have protected it from you

offer it to another more worthy than you

you contradict everything i know